Well Here It Is.

Well here it is. A new week and a new month all on the same day. That is begging my name to start WW again. I like order and I like to start and stop things when they should. Like I will not get out of bed until it is either 00 or 05 on the clock. Strange I know. I also will not get in bed until it is 00 or 05 on the clock. I like to only start diets on a Sunday and the beginning of the month is even better.

After floundering around for a while now and trying atkins again I'm switching back to WW. It's what I always go back to and it does work - plus you don't feel like you are starving yourself. So away we go! Hopefully this time it'll stick (well not the fat but the diet.)

Anyone else starting anew today?

I NEED. . .

I need to lose weight so that it won't be such a chore to clean my house.

I need to lose weight so that I can play with my son and run around with him.

I need to lose weight so that when I see my husband looking at me I'm not embarrassed.

I need to lose weight so that I can freely go to the beach instead of wanting to and then getting discouraged because I don't want to put my bathing suit on.

I need to lose weight so that I don't want to sleep all day.

I need to lose weight so that I can actually look in the mirror and not cry.

I need to lose weight because I so need to get healthy!

I need to lose weight so that all of the 90 pairs of pants hanging in my closet fit me. (and by the way it really is 90 pairs - I counted.)

I need to lose weight so that I'm not a prisoner in my own body!

I need to lose weight FOR ME!

Oh lord

So it's not good. I've been a bad, bad girl. All of the plans I had to stay on track when I went to NY - OUT THE WINDOW before I even got on the plane. Let me re-phrase that - OUT THE WINDOW the week before. I've been in a bad funk for some reason. Although going to NY and seeing NKOTB did pick me up and now I'm better but still not on track with the diet. I need to get back there.

My husband starts his new job tomorrow and most likely he'll be working nights. I'm worried about that because that leaves me home alone with just Brandon and that is never a good thing because I eat when I'm bored.

So now the new plan of attack.

1. Continue with Weight Watchers. It still is the best program around.
2. When hubby is working and it's still light out find things to do - go in the pool, walk around the neighborhood while Brandon rides his bike, blog, do something!
3. Try to start to exercise.

That last one is a hard one for me. I think I'm scared of myself! I feel like I have to much weight on to do any exercise. I know that's not the case I just have to convince myself.

The Ugly Side of Weight Loss

So this is the ugly side of being on a diet. Those days where you feel like a failure because you didn't stick to the plan and then you play tricks on yourself. Like well since I've already ate off plan I might as well keep going and then it spirals into days of not eating well and then before you know it you are off your diet. Hello, that is where I am right now.

What usually happens during this time is that I justify why I am not sticking to plan. Here's what I would say: work was crazy this week - excuse #1. Money issues have been stressing me out - excuse #2. I didn't have time to plan and cook - excuse #3. I have family visiting and they want to go out to eat - excuse #4.

NO MORE! This is it. I'm done with the excuses. Today I am back on plan and sticking to it.

Struggles

OMG - Some days it is just so hard. I never really thought of myself as an emotional eater but I guess I am. Today was a pretty stressful day at work and I just want to eat. I ate breakfast and had 2 huge glasses of water and it's almost lunch time but I am starving!!!

I plan on making this great Rachel Ray recipe for dinner - well a take on it anyway. It's called Shrimp with Fideos but I make it with chicken because I don't eat shrimp. Fideos are spanish pasta kind of like angel hair pasta and the sauce is a cross between Spanish and Chinese food believe it or not. It's so tasty. I'm really looking forward to dinner and it's just now 12:03 p.m.

Hunger bug you need to go away! I need to remember to stock my fridge with some good veggies to snack on.

Hope everyone else is having a better day than me!

Week Two - Weigh In

As I suspected I gained this week. 3.4 to be exact! That's a lot I think but I guess I'm retaining a lot of water. I also used all of my flex points this week plus some on Friday, which I know contributed to it. To tell you the truth though I am okay with it because I knew it was coming.

It's confession time. I have a major problem with weighing myself everyday. I tend to get obsessive over it. Each morning I weigh myself. I have mixed feelings about it because everything I see and read and hear says that you shouldn't do that because you weight can fluctuate but I just feel like it keeps me more on track. I'd love to know what other people think about it. Drop me a comment and let me know.

So now it's on to a new week and hopefully less retention of water and swelling due to these annoying bug bites.

Hope everyone is doing well on their journey!

Tomorrow is weigh-in day

Tomorrow is weigh-in day and I have a feeling it's not going to be good. I am pretty swollen. For starters it is that time of the month, and second, I am having a really bad reaction to some bug bites that I got last Saturday and my feet and ankles are all swollen where I was bit. When I wake up in the morning I can't even make a fist and to top it all off I ended up eating pizza for dinner tonight. Not that it's that bad but still. So if I do end up gaining tomorrow I'm fine with it because I know that next week it'll all come off again. It's a never ending battle and this is just one step along the way.

Since I'm still awake I think I'll go scrap so that I don't eat! LOL.